Is it possible to remodel yourself in a certain way to distance yourself from the society you live in? Existence is painful, and you eventually get to a point where you get tired of being a faked up piece of crap. You smile at everybody, you force yourself to be nice to everybody and every single defining factor that makes you a person begins to stand in question. There is a violent side of me. I’m being super open here. I believe in disorder. I believe in how it is necessary sometimes for disorder to exist, to tear open the veil of ignorance that drapes over the eyes of every single individual that stands against the edge of the Earth and smiles. But I also hold that it is not everyone that gets the right to instigate.
They called Socrates ‘gadfly’, but they also held that he was an emissary of God. Is this a valid enough excuse? Could I label myself as God’s messenger and use it as a pretext to grant myself the leave to violate the fundamental principles of natural Justice? Call me an anarchist, but sometimes, radical decisions are necessary to restore order in society. There is a reason why the scales of Justice are a balance. Lady Justice stands up there with the veil of ignorance, carrying the balance.
The world is not all good, it is not all bad either.
It is both, and that is the idea I’m trying now to piece together. When we learn of St. Augustine speaking of God granting humans the right to free will, what of the government we seemingly elect, “freely” mind you, a decision we make completely free from society’s environmental effect on you, the voter?
The irony is that we even give out an opportunity to these politicians to tell us why we need to vote for them. We literally allow them to abuse the sacred words that have been the cause for concern, world over, since man ever came out to stand forth. We call ourselves rational individuals and distinguish ourselves from every other living form, but it is the written/spoken word that has given us the right to make ourselves rational. Give dogs proper words, and they would take over the Earth in no time. This I believe would happen because their belief in faith and morality currently stands to be the same, for every dog, which unites them in ways we couldn’t imagine. But that’s an analytical argument for another day.
Words, and our lack of response, our intellectual structure, our physical structure, and Dale Carnegie’s goddarn book, all culminate in our ability to go stand wherever we want and make the people see what we want them to see, and in a way, make them believe that that is the way we want them to see us.
This distresses me. I hate the way we change the way people perceive us.
I’m someone with some one, and I’m someone else with someone else. I’m a different person with different people and the ‘me’ I like the most is my self, that is consistent with my soul, my mind, and every other intellectual aspect that frameworks every individual’s conscience.
When I’m that ‘me’, I’m free.
But, sadly, I can’t be that me with everyone else. There isn’t just a Slim Shady side to everyone. There’s five hundred of them, and I believe there’s one of them I’ve identified to be the most ‘me’.
I wish I could be that version of myself with everyone. Then, I’d probably conquer the Earth.
If we could be one version of ourselves, our most confident, virulent and bombastic versions. The version of ourselves we feel the most comfortable as, then we would transcend the insecure fabric of society and the rest of it. Our lives would flash between our eyes in a millisecond, and we would probably die.
Maybe that is why we are forced to undergo a tumult of changes, constantly becoming different people. I say, figure out what that ideal form of you is, get to it you goddarn fools.